Always Moving

Since I have been able to drive too and from testing sessions I get a lot of time to think (always a dangerous situation). It gives me far too much time where I can over think situations but also remind myself of conversations. Driving back from testing yesterday I was reminded of my a conversation with a friend about studying for a PhD and working in research.

Calm Before the Storm

During my first year there was a whirlwind of activity, I was new to Newcastle, I was setting up experiments, looking after project students, testing participants. It was daunting and felt like I had gone off at break neck speed, at times being unable to fully process it all. There was a near constant pressure to get things done. Pressure to prove myself to my supervisors. Pressure of moving and settling into a new city. Fortunately I was able to weather that particular storm of pressures. My second year has taken altogether much different pace. It much more nuanced, building there is pressure there but it is a different kind of pressure.

Friends Never Give Up

Something that I also experienced over the weekend was an interesting scenario when I visited my friend. Their friend was a little worse for wear and it was a testing set of circumstances for all, particularly for those who knew the individual concerned. I did what I could to reassure my friend and hopefully it helped him somewhat. Unfortunately I had to leave whilst he was at the hospital so I had to leave him a note. It was a note of where I had a rare moments of that was both eloquent and full of clarity. Below is the note.

One step forward, One step backwards, One step forwards!

So after the last months eye-opening self-realiztion moment, I have spent time working on sorting out my life in general as well as social events and also PhD in there as well. I am getting better at balancing between three yet I seem to only be able to get two out of three things correct. Still this is better than only only being able to focus on one thing having no balance at all.